Matriculation 16/17 : Study Things and The View

Assalamualaikum. Welcome to Part 2! If you haven't read my part 1, feel free to click the link below.

https://alyaspeaks.blogspot.com/2018/07/matriculation-1617-registration-and.html

Okay, so what did I studied in matriculation? Subjek wajib includes Kokurikulum, Kemahiran Dinamika, English, Chemistry and Mathematics. Then boleh pilih package either Biology and Physics (Modul 1), Biology and Computer Science (Modul 3) or Physics and Computer Science (Modul 2). I got Modul 1, and I stick with it sebab nak tukar renyah. Also, I don't really think I can do computer science although yang ambik ramai cakap senang.

I have to admit, I really love to take pictures during class, especially during amali. My favourite amali class that were perfect for pictures of course, Chemistry. All those colours really amazed me! But I hate doing the reports hehe

My second most enjoyable amali class would be Biology. Some experiments are very interesting, but some boring gila. Tapi kalau bab study, Bio would be my favourite. Ni jelah subjek yang dapat A both sem hahaha

Tetiba kena panggil lukis bunga kat depan, pastu ada paparazi tangkapkan gambar.

Paling tak suka, amali Physics. Paling susah nak dapatkan accurate reading due to unavoidable errors, pastu ganggu graph. Sakit hati ja bila tak dapat confirmkan hypothesis.

Tempat yang paling orang suka lepak, library. Satu-satunya tempat yang ada air cond and WiFi. Cumanya renyah sikit la, kena follow dress code dan kena scan kad matrik. Ramai suka study sini, but not me. Sebab jenis suka study atas katil, pastu tido, pastu bangun tengok buku balik. Tido dengan buku-buku.

Kelas English selalu Miss Wahida bawak masuk library. Sapa yang tak bawak kad matrik tu pandai pandai la lari balik bilik or pinjam kad orang (hopefully tak kena tangkap hahaha). Suruh pakai setiap masa when you're inside the college takmau, padan muka!

For MUET, ada satu program which was called PAL programme where those who got A+ for English in SPM will tutor those who got A during study group session. PAL programme ni untuk yang dapat A+ and A sahaja. Yang A- kebawah ada program lain, yang akan di guide oleh lecturer. Kiranya PAL students ni dipercayai untuk self-study gitu.

This is my group, tutored by Chun Hong. Three of us managed to get Band 5 in MUET, and another one managed to get Band 4. I'm proud of them, and it's very nice to get to know how students from all Chinese school study, cause they're such a pro. Organized sangat. And if you noticed... yes mostly yang dapat A+ and A memang Chinese, second Indians. Malays memang tak ramai. Thus my group members Chinese semua. I'm grateful they don't speak Chinese at all during meetings, I appreciate that they tried to include me in their conversation.

Kelas badminton pulak dengan Encik Zamri. Kelas badminton start lambat sikit, lepas mid sem rasanya. So sebelum tu rasa macam kelas kaunseling. Dia asyik tanya nanti nak masuk universiti mana, nak kerja apa. Layankan je. And dia suka panggil I Saloma. Ntah kenapa hahaha

KMPP have a great view, since keliling memang kampung dan sawah padi. Walaupun tu sebab banyak Charlie hehe.

The view from my room. Bila dah senja and my roommate still tak bukak lampu hehe

This one ada belakang surau. Bila baca blog senior before masuk KMPP, ramai yang cakap tempat ni popular. Orang panjat secara haram. Tapi my batch tak dengar cerita pulak.

 View pagi-pagi nak pegi kelas pukul 8. The view yang bagi semangat sikit nak pi kelas walaupun soalan tutorial tak siap. Eh

Haaa keliling pagar KMPP ada pokok ni, kami panggil sakura sebab bunga dia warna pink. Musim dia hujung semester 2. So memang acah acah goodbye KMPP gitu. Tanda dah nak habis belajar. Kecuali kalau ambik program dua tahun la kan.

 This one, view dataran waktu malam. Tiap malam lalu, sebab ada kelas tambahan.

That's all for now!

Alya Ayob.

Matriculation 16/17 : Registration and Events

Assalamualaikum and holla! Okay, I know, I know.. It's a super late post again but what can I do? I write only when I have the mood to, to ensure I actually write the content of my heart hehehe

Batch 18/19 dahpun masuk matrik, which means memang post ni dah tak berapa berguna(?) untuk rujukan batch '00 but whatever, kalau ada yang still curious then Google and found this post, you're more than welcome to read.

Let me tell you about my journey, cause I think you can pretty much know everything basic about matriculation from hundreds of posts about it right? I myself did quite an amount of research before I even step inside my college. If you're new, you might wanna know this, at least I think so LOL. I'm officially an ex-student of Penang Matriculation College, PMC for short. Hohoho who am I kidding? Kolej Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang or KMPP lah orang selalu panggil.

I'm in the one year programme, sains modul 1; code H (which consist of Biology, Physics(ughh) and Chemistry). Orang selalu cakap yang budak modul 1 ni pandai pandai and nerd. Well I'm the complete opposite, which is why I always think that I don't belong there. Like I'm somehow mistaken for someone else. I RARELY STUDY SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL KOT. PNGK pun 3.43 sahaja. Cukup makan hahaha

I got offers from various private universities but I'm from a very sederhana kind of family, so I rather not burden them with the finance that was phew, sesak nafas tengok tau hahaha. UPU pulak, I can't apply for asasi sains sebab Chemistry C+ sahaja. So diploma sains UiTM menjadi pilihan pertama. Eh, dapat pulak hahaha. But although I'm quite a slow learner, I pilih matrik yang orang cakap macam neraka tu sebab my father tak berapa berkenan dengan diploma. Dia tau anak dia suka main kot hahaha nnt pointer tahpape jer.

So, bersedialah saya dengan angkatan barangan merah jambu ke KMPP second day of Ramadhan. Orientasi bulan puasa tau. 2 minggu lagi. Tabah jelah mampu. First impression, not bad la facilities okay je. Tu sebelum tengok KMP dengan KMK yang canggih hahaha tapi syukur sahaja apa yang ada.

Pink for life hehe

We changed our room's arrangement once in a while sebab bosan.

Gambar right after orientasi. H1P5 and H1P6 (Kuliah H1 Practicum 5&6). Semua still awkward hahaha

Masa awal awal tu nangis je masa berbuka. Sampai ada rasa nak keluar, taknak stay sini (okay feeling ni bertahan sampai sudah, asyik cakap nak ambik borang biru (borang keluar) tapi lastly habis jugak belajar hahaha. Mana taknya, mostly semua masuk dengan kawan, adalah geng nak berbuka, terawih sama sama. Ni sorang sorang tercampak kat KMPP. Letak first choice kononnya dekat sebab my parents nak pindah balik Kedah after they retired pastu nyesal. Masa dapat excited la kan dapat first choice tapi hahahahaha padan muka.

But come to think of it, I don't regret any single thing EXCEPT the fact that I play way wayyyyy too much, tak study like I'm supposed to, and rove beetles banyak gila (nama glamor : Charlie). So adik adik yang baca post ni, please jangan jadi macam akak ye. I either volunteered or participated in almost every event held in KMPP, and girls, IT IS THE BEST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE. Seronok sangat, experience yang we might never have the chance to get involve again, Kalau tak participate sekalipun, mesti pergi tengok. For me that's the thing yang takkan lupa sampai bila bila.

KMPP actually ada banyak event, tapi banyak yang dibatalkan sebab tak cukup dana, so sad. Tapi I'm gonna talk a little bit about four of it's biggest events.

1. KAKOM and mini KAKOM - so basically, KAKOM stands for Karnival Kokurikulum Matrikulasi. Macam sports event la. KAKOM used to be peringkat kebangsaan where every matriculation college in Malaysia will join in a very huge event but mulai batch 16/17, KAKOM dibahagikan kepada dua bahagian, utara (and pantai timur) dan selatan. Mini KAKOM pulak peringkat kolej. Mini KAKOM kira jadi platform untuk pilih wakil kolej lawan KAKOM. Masa mini KAKOM, I masuk kawad mewakili negeri satu (Blok A1, B1 dan C1) and guess what? Don't guess. WE WONNNN!!! Ramai yang cakap tak adil sebab somehow negeri 1 banyak orang yang selalu kawad, including myself. But heyy, bukan kita pilih blok sendiri kan? hahaha

For KAKOM 16/17 yang bertempat di KMPP, I volunteered for two things, badminton and jemputan VVIP. Kelas bukan? hahaha ni semua pensyarah susun okay, I just isi borang sukarelawan and interview sahaja. Setiap sukarelawan memang diberi dua tugas. Tak join kawad KAKOM sebab kawad buat waktu kelas and luar KMPP so it's a no no, dah cukup tak pandai untuk skip kelas lagi. Oh ya, malam KAKOM depa ada buat wayang terbuka kat dataran. So cool tengok movie malam malam kat dataran hahaha

All prepared for Insidious 2 hahaha

If you guys are wondering what that weird thing is, its a finger. Thanks awak yang tolong ambik gambar XD

2. MEMORI - hah MEMORI ni pulak stands for Minggu Evolusi Minda Optimis Remaja Islam. Basically, event ni more to usaha dakwah yang diusahakan An Nur Commitee or ANC (geng surau la senang since surau kami nama An Nur) and Jabatan Perwakilan Pelajar or JPP. There is an expo where a lot of entrepreneur dari luar join, ada pertandingan Ikon Remaja Islam aka IRI yang macam program Daie tuu, ada ceramah perdana, and lots of games.

Although nama dia Remaja Islam, semua pelajar yang menganut agama lain turut digalakkan join, cause thats what it is for actually. Dakwah through daily activities. Untuk MEMORI, I volunteered for the game part, so kami buat explorace and other mini games. It's so fun to work with new people and gain new experience, trust me! Part paling best other than malam pembukaan and penutup is malam ceramah perdana, sebab penceramah best and kumpulan nasyid yang buat persembahan lepas tu suara sedap gila sumpah! Dahla semua berkerjaya hebat hebat, dentist pun ada hokay!

Acoustic band

3. Pratyaksha - Pratyaksha is an event organised by Indian Commitee in KMPP. Event paling besar for sure its show night, where there are a lot of performances that of course includes A LOT OF DANCING. Its so cool, watching Malays, Chinese, Indians and Siamese wore baju pujabi and saree to the event. Unfortunately I dont have one, but would like to buy one someday In Sha Allah. Malam event, depa bagi laduu (manisan India yang ada banyak different spices) and glow in the dark bangle. Basically, malam tu malam menari hahaha

Untuk yang ni I joined pertandingan buat Thoranam which is the one yang Indians gantung depan rumah. Depa percaya dapat elakkan penyakit masuk rumah gitulah lebih kurang. Nak tau lebih google kay hehe. And I won this one too hahaha tak sangka gila. Well, we won sebab I joined this with Yi Lin, Chun Hong, Wani and Tiviyah, geng geng hebat semua hahaha but whatever kami still dapat first prize hehe

 Allahu please ignore the serabai-ness. Kadang tengok gambaq kat matrik rasa macam selekeh gila hahaha

4. Festival tanglung - Sama macam Pratyaksha, event utama still malam event, cuma yang ni Chinese Society yang anjurkan. Yang ni I join tengok je hahaha. So banyak la persembahan malam tu. using the drums. And depa ada jual tanglung jugak, yang akan digantung keliling dewan. The atmosphere was nice, nampak semangat Satu Malaysia dia tu hehehe

Other events including:

Math Shopping. Event ni kita kena buat aktiviti macam explorace untuk dapatkan 'duit' and with that money kita guna untuk beli jawapan. Aim dia adalah untuk jawab soalan Matematik untuk lengkapkan mind map. Dapat saguhati ja sebab tak pandai Maths hahaha

Maifest. Serious taktau event ni untuk apa, yang pasti I join explorace. Gambar ni one of the task, kena tangkap gambar dengan 5 orang strangers

Karnival Sains KMPP. Yang ni best, daripada students sekolah rendah sampailah pusat sains semua involve untuk buat pameran. Banyak interactive activity so memang sangat best, cumanya buat tengah sem time orang tengah sibuk dengan assignment so kurang sambutan.

Medtalk. Basically a talk from a medical student and a psychologist. Full of useful information for those who planned to enter the medical field. They're very good looking tho. Real handsome/beauty with brain.

KMPP Got Talent. Just a regular talent competition. Nice to see that they're just as talented in arts as they're in science!

Sambutan Hari Merdeka. Usual usual things, macam sekolah.

Pilihanraya KMPP. I volunteered masa pemilihan JPP under macam suruhanjaya pilihanraya gitu, sebab ada undian yang satu kolej terlibat.

Pertandingan senamrobik. Pegi sokong kawan sebab lawan antara yang masuk kelas senamrobik untuk subjek kokurikulum. I masuk kelas badminton hehe

I think that's all for this post. See ya on the next one!

Alya Ayob.

I'm Sorry, and Thank You

Assalamualaikum. I'm 20 years and 14 days old. I realized that I've not write anything in 2017. And a lot had happened. I went to umrah during my semester break in my matriculation year, and I've graduated with CGPA 3.43 and Band 5 in MUET. Nothing to be proud of, not as good as others for sure. There are a sea of people graduated with 4 flats but I'm thankful for what I got, given that I've played so much hahaha. Matriculation, though days. Gain a lot of experience, and weight hehe.

Right at this moment, I'm on my semester break. Finished my first year of degree with CGPA 3.51. Bolehlah dari takda hahaha. I'm currently taking a Bachelor of Arts (Hons) English For Professionals in Universiti Sains Malaysia at their main campus, Penang Island. I think I will write a post on my umrah experience later. There's a lot I want to talk about, yet I have no strength to write. Here today, I want to talk about common courtesy.

I learned in school that saying thank you and I'm sorry is a good thing to do. And now that I'm 20, I couldn't agree more. It's super simple, consist of two to three words, yet can soothes someone's heart and make someone's day. Amazing isn't it? However, it's not as easy as it seems, and I've figured out why. It's because I lack it in my life.

I didn't go out much. Wouldn't say that I'm an introvert, but I rather stay alone and do a lot of things by myself. Sharing room is not ideal for me and I've been wanting to have a room to myself for so long, yet couldn't get the chance ( problem for people with siblings). I could say that I've been around my family the most, and they didn't make saying sorry and thank you a common thing. So it's... awkward.

I noticed this the most when Hari Raya comes. Gosh, I got chills trying to ask for forgiveness from my parents. It makes me sad. I feel the distance between me and my family members. I envy others who have theirs parents or siblings as their best friends. I do realize that people will put only the good things on social media, but I couldn't help but feel needy.

I love you? It only comes during birthdays, I only said it to my parents. Couldn't recall if I've ever received any. And the awkwardness, ugh. Once in a year, you can tell how distance I am with them. I've been scolded for things (my fault) but I've rarely been thanked for doing things. Call me insincere, but I think it's not too much to ask for. I just need acknowledgement as a human being.

Over the years, I've noticed that my family don't express our feelings enough. So I made a mental note that I would teach my children to express their feelings more. I always remind myself to take note of the things I wish I have and try my best to not let my future kids down. It's my goal to be a best friend to my future daughters and sons, but still earn respect from them. I hope they would feel safe and secure to share everything with me.

I would teach my kids to say sorry and thank you not only to strangers, teachers and friends, but to their own family members. And I want to set an example to them, that their parents are trying so hard to raise them, but we're still human and we make mistakes. Thus, we can told them that we're sorry. We also acknowledge their effort to make amends in this house, our house. So we'll say thank you. And that we always love them no matter what, we will say that we love them. On daily basis, not only on special occasions.

We'll learn from our parents to be a better parents. That's life. May Allah guide us.

Alya Ayob.

Friend or foe?

Assalamualaikum and hi :)

Berkawan. Kadang-kadang berkawan tu satu benda yang sangat senang tapi boleh jadi sangat susah. I mean, kita join a club for instance, kita akan dapat kawan baru dengan tegur orang sebelah ja. See it's easy? But then, bila kita dah berkawan, kita makin kenal. That is when we need to learn about each other, to learn to draw the line. The line, the limit. Tahap seseorang berbeza mengikut tahap kesabaran, kesopanan dan of course mengikut pengalaman lampau. Because past is what made us who we are now. We are highly affected by our past. So in order to actually have a good relationship, mesti tau past masing masing. Bukan tak move on, bukan nak sentiasa ingat. But just in case, we might hurt somebody else's heart, by something we didn't even mean to say. That's the role of the line, to make appropriate jokes according to someone preference. You know, bagi kita mungkin simple and nothing much, tapi mungkin tak bagi dia. That's how challenging a relationship is, no matter if its friendship or more. It's the same. The thing is, nak draw the line is hella hard. Yelah, nak open up to someone need trust and courage. And without it, we wouldn't know someone enough to actually draw the lines.

Beware, wrong line can lead to permusuhan. Friend to foe. In a blink of an eye.

But then, the effort is what really matter. Cause what's the point to even try to make it work if it's one sided? Kalau ada masalah, bincang elok elok. Jangan lawan api dgn api, nanti hangus. Ego letak tepi, kalau betul sayang relationship tu la kan. Tak sayang takpa, takyah kesah. Tinggal cari baru. *serious face

I am trully sorry if I ever make jokes, write or talk about sensitive things. Trust me, I never meant to (well most of the time) (sometimes my inner devil shine hehehe jk) No no seriously, forgive me. Let's try our best to award ourselves with That One Person Who Everyone Likes award shall we? :)

Tips of the day : Nothing much for this post. Remember, communication is the key ;)

The one who speaks from the heart,
Alya Ayob.

Klik Dengan Bijak - My Story

Assalamualaikum and holla!

Yes, yes I know that I’ve promised to write during Eid ul Fitr and I should write it ages ago (6 months ago, to be precise) but I just don’t have the mood to do so. I should be writing about my experience as a college student as it’s already the end of the semester and next week is going to be my study week and all; but that isn’t what triggered me to write today. You know, its all over twitter about a girl that had openly assault (well I exaggerate, humiliate would fit better in this situation) another girl with a bunch of other Mean Girls wannabe backing her up, by picking about body size. Well, we all know cyber bullying - some even experienced it or eventually going though it right now (which explained how you found my blog) but how many people actually know what cyber-bullying actually capable of to ruin somebody’s life? So I’m going to share my story today. Just so you know, I AM NOT writing this to seek for sympathy, but I’m trying to open some closed minds and deepen some shallow hearts; just my little effort to make the world a better place for all.

It all started when I moved into a new school, I was in standard 3. I’m not happy with it of course, to leave my best friends and to actually make new friends. Duh admit it, nobody likes to get out of their comfort zone right? And as a 9 year old kid I knew nothing, I actually just follow the lead of my parents. Long story short, everyone was nice. Make jokes, ask if I want to eat together and save a place for me if I’m late, everything went smoothly. Well at least I thought so. But then when I was in standard 5, someone actually tell me about the existence of CLUB ANTI ALYA. Yes guys, I have a club named after me hahaha. Fake people, fake people everywhere. I won’t tell the reason why the club exist, just because its childish – well we were 9 after all. But trust me, to be mentally bullied at a very young age; the damage? Permanent.

So I started to feel depressed. I ate a lot. I overthink about everything. Insecure. I lose trust in people. My roommate at school is dissing me because I advised her until I managed to stay at the hostel just for 6 months. Not to mention my ex boyfriend cheated on me. Just nice, putting vinegar on my wound. Don’t misunderstand me, I forgive them all. But to forget, I don’t think I can ever do that. Yezza, in a blink of an eye, I have trust issues. Until now, I can’t leave my friends behind after a conversation without regretting what I’ve said and picturing them talking bad about me behind my back. It’s awful you know, to not being able to trust your own friends. And I felt sick knowing there’s not even a piece of huznudzon (thinking good about others) placed on my mind. Andddddd, to top it all, I gained weight. Plenty of ‘em. And that my friend, gonna make everything worse that I thought it could ever be.

So now I’m fat. Even though my friends told me “mana ada gemuk pun Alya” “alaaa macam ni la comel” it doesn’t help. Even my family called me fat and bulat. Well, you know family never lie. I acted strong, I pretended to laugh it off in front of them but Allah knows how much it hurts inside. And all those pretty people on social media – enough to make me feel guilty every time I want to eat even when I’m hungry. And I watch this movie, its about awareness for eating disorder. Instead of actually being aware, I’ve honestly had a thought to stop eating; convincing myself that the girl in that movie is already thin but I’m REALLY REALLY FAT so it wont hurt me. Thank God, alhamdulillah I have good friends around me that is actually aware of what I’ve tried to do. Who know what would happen if they don’t.. nauzubillahiminzalik.

So now I believed I’ve been better. Im still trying to think and care less about what people say because you know what Taylor Swift sang in Shake It Off, haters gonna hate hate hate! I’m still emotionally unstable (I can suddenly cry, mad or annoyed at little things) but I’m learning to control it. May Allah ease!

Tips of the day : Watch what you say or post about sensitive issues. Some might find it hilarious but some might find it offensive. Always try to see the world in other’s perspective, so you can act wisely. Last but not least, teasing others about sensitive issues is DEFINITELY NOT FUNNY SO STOP IT. SAY NO TO CYBER BULLYING. Remember, life’s a wheel. You can’t always be at the top. At some point of life you’ll be at the bottom. Be kind 🌼

The movie

Pasca SPM : The End. (Fin)

Assalamualaikum. Ramadhan kareem. Alhamdulillah we all met with this bless month again this year. All praise to Allah, The Creator of the whole universe. Happy fasting!

Okay, kenapa tajuk dia The End? Well this is the end of the Pasca SPM series, cause in sha Allah in two days, I’ll be a collage student wohoo, may Allah ease! I’ve received a few offer from private universities such as MSU, Manipal and UTP, but I rejected all of them because I’m not rich and also not smart enough to get myself a full scholarship. Well I got a full scholarship for MSU in medical field, but I’m too scared I will screw up and ended paying everything back which is so NOT a little amount of money. I got Diploma Sains Uitm Jengka as well, but I rejected it as well. I think I really feel good about my decision to enter matriculation. I take it as a sign.

I’m going to KMPP! Kolej Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang, I’m coming for ya! Okay, don’t be fooled by that, I’m just a lil bit exited. The biggest feeling I feel right now is NERVOUSNESS. I bought almost everthing in pretty pink, senang roommate nak tau warna favourite untuk bagi hadiah birthday nanti. Al maklumlah birthday masa raya, mesti tak dapat hadiah sebab baru kenal sebulan hahaha. Most of the things dah dibeli, the final preparation would be done tomorrow. Harap kedai bukak sebab Kedah ambik first Ramadhan as a public holiday. Please bukak I’ll spend my parents money there hahahahaha. Bersalah tahu nak beli barang banyak ni. Rasa menyusahkan ja hidup. I love my parents for raising me up as gemuk and fancy dressed (okay menyampah dengan diri sendiri sebab perasan) as I am now. Maknanya tak pernah tak cukup makan pakai. Lebih makan adalah hahaha.

In sha Allah, the next post akan jadi post bergambar, takdalah rasa macam baca novel sangat kan hehehe. Dah nak mula the next phase of life ni, doakan Alya Athirah binti Ayob ni rajin study, ingat Allah selalu dalam hidup dan tak terlebih emo. Takleh kata tak emo langsung sebab nanti tak jadi orang. Okay aminkan cepat. Bulan puasa ni doa makbul hehehe. Ni first time nak puasa away from family, risau homesick melampau lampau hahaha. Orientasi bulan puasa, tabah lah. Dapat pulak blok paling jauh, redha berganda ganda. Nilah yang orang panggil dugaan Ramadhan ya hahaha. Kawan pulak takdak sorang pun masuk KMPP. Okay Alya, mood peramah : ON. Time to find new friends from all over Malaysia! You’re getting your eyes open wider than ever before, so beware. Jangan culture shock. Luckily KMPP is very religion based in everything. Chances are bila dah bergelar alumni dah jadi orang yang lebih baik, in sha Allah. Syukur!

Okay, nanti snap gambar banyak banyak for my soon to be first ever entry as a collage student dan bukan lagi penganggur hahaha. Banyak kawan kawan yang dah masuk belajar, and they are all still alive and doing well so no need to feel scared *patt myself on the head*. As you can (or might) see this post is mostly about trying to keep myself calm. I’m so not ready to not climb onto my bed again after subuh and living with roommates. I hope I would still have my me time, a time for me and myself only. Okay I’ll stop here to make sure esok perut terisi sebab tak terlepas sahur huhuhu. Again, happy fasting for all muslims all over the world!

Tips of the day : The world is round and it spins around. Once you’re at the top, the other moment you’ll be at the bottom. All you have to do is do good to every single creature on earth. No matter what their religion, race, ethnic, skin tone or language, whatever it is, it’s surely not a barrier for you to do good. Believe, that good comes to you when you do good, like a magnet. Put your faith in God, He will help you and He will and always be there for you. Remember to fill your soul more that your tummy ;)

The one who speaks from the heart,

Alya Ayob.

Pasca SPM : Berlesen

Assalamualaikum and holla!

Okay, It's always awkward for me as I don't really know how to address myself, that's the reason why I keep on talking in English hahaha. But then I think it's better for me to just address myself as Alya. Alya dah dapat lesen P for both B2 and D, and I'm so grateful! Rasa lega sangat sebab dah lepas dah 'azab' nak ambik lesen tu. Sejak azali Alya memang tak suka buat benda yang akan dinilai oleh orang lain. It makes me nevous. That's why I don't like competition. To wait for the result is a kind of torture for me. Kalau exam okay lagi sebab tak nampak direct pemeriksa tu, Tapi exam besar macam SPM tu penat jugaklah tunggu result hahaha. Awak tak rasa macam tu? Ada saya tanya? Hahaha just kidding, hati masing-masing ye dok? Okay why my writing style changes? Weird.

Okay, sebab dah dapat lesen, now I'm back at Dengkil in my own home sweet home hehehe. Boleh catch up balik marathon tengok Runningman, pastu selang seli dengan few movies yang serious sikit sebab sakit gusi gelak banyak sangat hahaha. Sepanjang cuti ni, Alya dengar banyak sangat orang buat different activities yang berfaedah such as ambik English short course, ada yang interview sana sini and yang paling banyak kerja, cari duit untuk kepuasan sendiri. And what did I do? I asked myself that question plenty of times because I can't seem to find the answer. The only thing yang berfaedah yang Alya buat sepanjang cuti ni is just ambik lesen. AND THAT'S IT. Pity me.

Sebab dah tak tau nak spend cuti macam mana, I decided to start blogging again. BUT seriously, without no laptop, and just using my tiny tiny little phone, my eyes hurts and it's feels like it's never ending tau tak. That's why post jadi sikit padahal banyak benda nak cerita. Benda mengarut jalah sebenarnya tapi ntah rasa nak cerita. Mungkin sebab tak berfaedah tu yang tak diberi keizinan untuk menulis hahaha. Oh ya, Alya cuba jugak belajar Bahasa Korea using an app called Eggbun, Seriously Koreans never failed to do something creative. That apps is daebak and domu domu gwiyowo! (Mudah terpengaruh) But seriously it's been years since I start thinking about learning a third language. Takat tau cakap pun okay dah, eventhou English dengan Malay pun tak expert lagi. I envy people yang boleh cakap banyak bahasa, cause I'm very curious of what people are saying. (Busybody sebenarnya hahaha). Tapi apps tu bertahan 2 hari. Sangat hot hot chicken poop.

Okay, sebelum ni kat Kedah I really envy my friends yang boleh drive here and there, with permisson and they do drive gracefully like an expert (which I don't). You see I do tend to envy people around me. Hence my whatsapp status is 'sedang belajar bersyukur' cause indeed I am trying and it's hard trust me. Okay back to the topic. I went out with my friends to lots of places, they fetch me from my kampung. Ada yang bawak pi Aman Central, ada yang bawak pi main badminton and tengok wayang, ada yang bawak pi swimming and ada yang even plan picnic kat Tasik Darulaman. Impressive! I should be thankful for these people around me. If you're reading this, acknowledge that I'm so thankful for everything. Thank you for being a good friend eventhough I'm not doing the same to you.

So petang tadi, I gather up my courage to drive my family's little orange Kancil, alone to the mart nearby. I was freaking out but then I felt better just because nothing happened like I imagined hahaha. Siap singgah merata lagi cari barang tak jumpa. Lepas tu pi jalan dekat taman sebelah, trying to find my friend's house. Tiba-tiba nampak dia jalan with my another friend. Apa lagi, fetch depa. Depa request bawak jalan, dalam hati fikir "aku dahlah tak expert" hahahaha. So last sekali bawaklah pi KFC. Sembang-sembang, kami pun decide nak balik. Masa mengundur tu, kereta asyik mati ja. My two friends tu memang takda lesen, so they freak out! But unexpectedly I'm super calm which is rare, like very very rare hahaha. Nasib baik driver tu pun okay tak hon hon ka apa. Pelik tau kenapa asyik mati enjin ja ni. Sekali sedar, Ya Allah Alya, HANDBRAKE TAK TURUN. *facepalm*

Sabtu ni my former school, SMK Dengkil akan buat Hari Kantin which I would say besar- besaran jugaklah, compared to the previous years. I'm planning to go but I'm scared to drive as kat depan simpang nak ke jalan besar tu there's a lil bukit, so i'm very risau that my car would undur. Kay cakap macam apa gi campur English Malay, harap mengerti. Masih plan untuk pergi. Doakan saya jadi berani hahaha.

Tips of the day : This is not my quote, I read this on Instagram (@thegoodquote.co), "Everything you've ever wanted is on the other side of fear." Kita kena sedar, selagi kita takut takut, kita akan tetap dalam takuk lama. So, make the first step and never turn back. Bergeraklah kehadapan, even if at certain point you have to crawl, the struggle is worth it. This kind of experience is what we need in life. Our different kind of treasure. Banyak fikir pun satu jenis penyakit. Ber'kalau' banyak sangat. What if this, what if that. Just like what Nike told us in their campaign, JUST DO IT.

Nota kaki : I'm trying to edit this blog layout and everything, but I guess I left it too long that I've lost my touch (cakap macam dulu hebat sangat edit blog). If you have any suggestion(s), leave your comment below. I'll appreciate it :)

The one who speaks from the heart,

Alya Ayob.